Adela ran. She had soon no breath for screaming. She ran. She
did not know where she was going. She ran. She heard a voice
calling behind her: "The earth's loose and the wind's blowing",
and she ran more wildly. Her flesh felt the touch of a gritty
hand; a voice kept calling after her and round her: "The earth's
loose; the wind's blowing." She ran wildly and absurdly, her
full mouth open, her plump arms spasmodically working, tears of
terror in her eyes. She desired above all things immediate
safety-in some place and with someone she knew. Hugh had
disappeared. She ran over the Hill, and through a twisted blur of
tears and fear recognized by a mere instinct Lawrence Wentworth's
house. She rushed through the gate; here lived someone who could
restore her to her own valuation of herself. Hugh's shouted
orders had been based on no assent of hers to authority; however
much she had played at sensual and sentimental imitations of
obedience, she hated the thing itself in any and every mode. She
wanted something to condone and console her fear. There was a
light in the study; she made for it; reached the window, and
hammered on the glass, hammered again and again, till Wentworth at
last heard and reluctantly drew himself from the stupor of his
preoccupation, came slowly across the room and drew back the
curtain.
They confronted each other through the glass. Wentworth
took a minute or two to recognize whose was the working and
mottled face that confronted him, and when he recognized it, he
made a motion to pull the curtain again and to go away. But as
she saw the movement she struck so violently at the glass that
even in his obsession he was terrified of others hearing, and
slowly and almost painfully he pushed the window up and stood
staring at her. She put her hands on the sill and leant inwards.
She said - "Lawrence, Lawrence, something's about!"
He still stood there, looking at her now with a heavy distaste,
but he said nothing, and when she tried to catch his hand he moved
it away. She looked up at him, and a deeper fear struck at her -
that here was no refuge for her. Gomorrah closed itself against
her; she stood in the outer wind of the plain. It was cold
and frightful; she beat, literally, on the wall. She sobbed;
"Lawrence, help me."
Charles Williams
Descent into Hell
Ch. 11 - The Opening of Graves
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